Disclaimer: this post is real y'all.
It is 2019, I am in the last year of my twenties, and I decided it is going out with a bang. I am challenging my comfort zones, I am committing to more passion projects, and I am aiming to bring WESTxEAST to the next level. I am no longer going to just think to myself "I could do that better", I am just going to do it and be better. I am manifesting positivity into the universe folks!
The decision is made. The only way is forward. There is no more making excuses. I find that I sometimes hold myself back with the weirdest justifications. The biggest ones of which are "I don't want to bother them", or "I don't want to seem needy". On a rationale level, I understand the worst that could happen is that they say no. Yet, I constantly find myself falling back in situations where I should maximize the opportunity. My biggest focus is to put myself out there in ways I have held back in. All these years dressing women and being trusted and respected for my opinion, but I constantly hold back when it could be beneficial to me. I keep watching mediocrity succeed and rather than burning with indignation, I am claiming back my time.
I can't really be out here trying to empower women when I don't empower myself. I am my toughest critic and it is my voice in my head that holds me back the most. It isn't like I don't have the same advantages as others, I just don't make the most of it. I share this with you because maybe you feel the same. I just want to be living in my truth. I have a supportive husband, amazing family, incredible and inspiring friends, so what is it? I've come to the conclusion that I need to face the fact that I am not as brave as I seem. Courage starts from within and I clearly need to summon more. So it is going to start with shifting my perspective and being okay with rejection. Can't just be working hard in a corner and hoping to get noticed. Not today madam, not today.
Ammachic will be bold and fearless people. It. Is. Happening. I just saw the fruits of this shift in mindset this weekend and it inspired me to share it with you. Hopefully, I don't sound too life coachy because Lord knows my life ain't together. But hey, none of us do, we aren't Marie Kondo. But let's try to evolve for the better, together. Shall we?